Before you read any farther (or is it further?) please be warned about my mood.
Lately, my mood has been 3D…dark, dreary, and dank. According to the Urban Dictionary, the stoners use dank to describe something of high quality. So in that vernacular, my dark mood has been really dank, man.
There are many reasons that I can contribute to this blue melancholia, none of which by themselves should contribute to my glumness. Basically, I have always been a pretty happy guy and never worried about much, though no one ever accused me of being an optimist or no one has ever called me “Sunshine”.
Lately, things have changed in my psyche.
I feel I have been struggling to free myself from the tentacles of life’s encumbrances.
I have been asking myself many questions during the self-analysis sessions late at night and early in the morning when my body is refusing sleep. Sometimes at work, I find myself on Freud’s couch, slipping into a session (some would say spacing-out) only to be brought back to the present tense by the other person in my presence slapping me to see if I haven’t been body-snatched. How long does post-tornado stress last? How long after your kids get married and leave the nest does it take to emotionally stabilize? Will life in the sixties be worse than the fifties? Have I misinterpreted how the peace of God is manifested in our lives? Can I really be this selfish? How much is a house in Tuscany? Is there any chance my body will feel better as I get older?
I took this picture of a country church in Rowan County, KY on Rt. 519. This church has since moved to a new location. I was drawn to the shot by the shadows thrown on the church by a large tree. The shadows remind me of the struggles that await us as we exit the church doors into Satan’s realm. Lately I’m not so sure that some of the shadows haven’t crept inside.
I mentioned tentacles before and it seems like these shadows represent those tentacles that encumber us at times.
I don’t have any real reason to feel this way. The all-powerful God, the Lord, and Creator of all knows me and still loves me. I have a wonderful family that has grown recently. I have learned to like fish and kale and other good foods that will keep me living for a hundred more years.
My vacation is coming and my alter ego will soon be taking over and Big Surf Daddy refuses to be encumbered by life’s tentacles. When Big Surf shows up my days will be dank again…man.
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